I'm Done With You. For Good.

1) What do you like better about me?:
[] Personality
[] Looks


(2) What would you rather change about me?:
[] My age
[] Where i live
[] How i look


(3) What would you call me?:
[] Cute
[] Fuckable
[] Ugly
[] Fugly
[] Okay
[] Hott
[] Beautiful
[] Something Else - What is it?______________________


(4) Would you rather:
[] Hang out with me at a party
[] watch a movie with me and cuddle
[] Have a sleepover with me


(5) If you had a choice, would you:
[] Want to be just friends
[] Want to be more than friends?
[] Fuck Buddies
[] Best Friends


(6) Have you ever wanted to tell me something but couldnt or didnt? Tell me now._______________________________
[] Yes
[] No


(7) If you could ask me one question, what would it be?



(8) Have you ever wanted me?? be honest
[] Yes
[] No


(9) What's my best feature?


(10) Are you going to re-post this so that I can answer back?

Life is getting the roughest I've ever experienced it, Apirl is always the worst month for me... theres always a break up that breaks my heart, and makes me cry.. I have a nice layer cake of problems with suger coated frosting, so they look good, first problem, i have cancerous fluids in my calves, and apparently my parents knew this since they frist found the fluids, that there going to spread throughout my body, kemo will act against me, cause apparently it causes more fluids, and such, and the cancerous fluids are going to spread and shut down my body. so i basicly have 5-6 years... then to top that layer, my boyfriend(Well now ex) left me because things are so stressfull right now for us to be together.. which depresses me.. even more.. then school, the ap test, looking around...

Feeling kinda lonely.. I just wanna give up, i feel like im loosing hope on everything but i suppse thats life at the current moments..

Dont really know why im posting here... maybe because i know next to nobody looks at this... which isa plus i suppose...

Oh god, I just feel it, I feel it....
I dont really know really anymore, I hate thinking about the past for one reason, it kills all emotions for people i have currently, so then i get all afraid to like these people... ehh.. it sucks..
I wanna take the nearest escape route...
I can't do what Im doing...
Sorry for running away...
I needed to get away.. I really do... maybe i should take a step back and realise what the hell im doing...
give me a few hours.. ill figure it all out..
I just dont know anymore

Well thanks to the good ol pal Tony, that is stuck in my head " Stop! HAMMER TIME"
but yeah anyways...
Mike's awesome of course hehe..
ehh i need to paint so badly.. but i cant... grrr.. not enough inspiration.. damn it.. someone inspire me..
There needs to be a governmental aproved job, called and Inspirer, where you job is to inspire me...
I need more oil piant, lots of paint... i need the whole sha-bang of paint, im runnin low.. ehh...i havelots a money betting i should go out and buy more paint...

Funniest coversation with audrey ever...
TheEndlessFall13 (7:04:57 PM): Uh huh,hunnie, my man baught me a 25 cent ring from a gum ball machine, not thats commitment!
FrankieSezRelaxx (7:05:42 PM): bish my man bought me a ring at claires for a dolla, yo man be too cheap
TheEndlessFall13 (7:06:17 PM): Uh huh girl, your man to white
FrankieSezRelaxx (7:06:30 PM): yeah he is but he an uh oh oreo
TheEndlessFall13 (7:06:41 PM): is he double stuffed?
FrankieSezRelaxx (7:06:56 PM): hells yeah ;-)
TheEndlessFall13 (7:07:38 PM): OO girl, i see how it is between those two cookies

we are soo crazy lol..

current song lyrics...
"Goodnight, Goodnight"

It's not enough to hear me say you've won
You only wanted me for having fun
But now I think you've gone and had your way
And left me with a pile of bills to pay
I can't even rewind the tape machine
To listen to your drunken reasoning
So here it is - your final lullaby

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So Goodnight

I've given up on social niceties
I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys
Along with all your records I can't stand
You never even listen to any one of them
You're never gonna drag me out again
With all the people that were never ever even your friends
So here it is - your final lullaby

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight

A little bit of rain I'd say is fair
But when it starts to thunder they all stare
This isn't goodnight, this is goodbye...

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So goodnight

i love it..
Random Question : Am I more then you Bargined for?

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF::
1. I died:
2. I kissed you:
3. I lived next door to you:
4. I started smoking:
5. I stole something:
6. I was hospitalized:
7. I ran away from home:
8. I got into a fight and you weren't there?

::WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY::
9. Personality:
10. Eyes:
11. Hair:
12. Family:

::WOULD YOU::
13. Be my friend?
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?
15. Hold my hand?
16. Take a bullet for me?
17. Keep in touch?
18. Try and solve my problems?
19. Love me?
20. Date me?

::HAVE YOU EVER::
21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Wanted to kill me?
24. Broke my heart?
25. Kept something important from me?
26. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

::AND MORE::
27. Who are you?
28. Are we friends?
29. When and how did we meet?
30. Describe me in one word:
31. What was your first impression?
32. Do you still think that way about me now?
33. What reminds you of me?
34. If you could give me anything what would it be?
35. How well do you know me?
36. When's the last time you saw me?
37. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
38. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

could i be living a lie????

[What are you wearing right now?] boy shorts and a sports bra..
[Would you have sex before marriage?] ehh
[Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?] god no
[Are you a virgin? sadly...no.
[Do you smoke?:] No
[Do you drink?:] No
[What are your favorite colors?:]red
[What is your favorite animal?:] horse
[Do you have any birthmarks?:] two on my right arm... just mnakes me look dirty
[Who are your best friends?:] Audrey, Sarah, and Phil
[Have you ever been slapped?:] Sometimes I wish Big Mike did
[Do you get online a lot?:] yeah
[Are you shy or outgoing?:] a mix of both.. mainly shy
[Do you shower?:] twice a day
[Do you hate school?:] not really i kinda enjoy it
[How easily do you trust people?:] it takes awhile
[Have you ever lied to your best friends?:] once, to hide a secret
[Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?:] i can count them all on one had too
[Would you ever sky dive?:] no...
[Do you like to dance?:] only if im alone
[Do you like to travel?:] somewhat depends where too
[Have you ever been expelled from school?:] No
[Have you ever been suspended from school?:] No
[Do you want to get out of your hometown?:] not really
[Have you ever gotten high?:] no
[What's your favorite drink?:] dr. pepper
[Do you like Snapple?:] only strawberry kiwi
[Do you drink a lot of water?:] i nono
[What toothpaste do you use?:] crest whiting crap
[Do you have a cell phone or pager?:]neighter
[Do you have a curfew?:]sometimes
[What name brand do you wear the most?:] american eagle
[What kind of jewelry do you wear?:] rings, sometimes earings
[What do you have pierced?:] my ears
[What do you want pierced?:] nothing more...
[Do you like taking pictures?:] sometimes
[Do you like getting your picture taken?] nto really i feel concieted
[Do you have a tan?:] yeah.
[Do you get annoyed easily?:] not really
[Do you have your own pool?:] no
[Do you have any siblings?:] Yes
[Do you get along with your parents?:] with my dad not with my mom
[How do you vent your anger?:] okay, this is what you can do, a) get a pen and paper, write it all out, or b) call up old sconeface, and go to a park and talk about it
[Have you ever run away?:] i should..
[Have you ever been fired from a job?:] laid off yes
[Do you even have a job?:] yeah 2
[Do you daydream a lot?:] yeah and it sucks
[What are your favorite flowers?:] red roses
[What does your most recent crush look like?:] tall....very tall..
[Are you rude?:] i try not to be
[What is your heritage?:]Italian,german
[What is your lucky number?:] 3
[What does your hair look like right now?:] long, brunette and wet
[Could you ever be a vegetarian?:] i was for a couple eyars
[Would you ever date someone younger than you?:] no.
[Would you ever date someone older than you?:] best kind
[How many rings until you answer the phone?:] depends how lazy i am
[Do you look more like your mother or father?:] father
[Do you ever cry to get your way?:] i wish life worked that way sometimes
[What phrase do you use most when on the phone?:]thats fun
[Have you ever been chased by cops?:] no
[When was the last time you threw up?:] two months ago
[What do the shoes you last wore look like?:] adidas flip flops, black with white strips
[Is your best friend a virgin?:] yeah.. lol
[What theme does your room have?:] well theres many, i like to say eat wall has a theme, one wall; horses, art,friends, and then bleh
[What size shoe do you wear?:] 9
[What jewelry are you wearing now?:] three rings
[What is your screen name on AIM?:] TheEndlessFall13
[How are you feeling right now?:] lied to
[What do you sleep in?:] A bed
[Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?:] a couple..
[What is one of your bad qualities?:] im introverted
[What is one of your good qualities?:] You tell me
[When was the last time you cried in school?:]in april, god i was stupid


LAST...

movie you rented = without a paddle
song you listened to = whatever you became- cold
song that was stuck in your head = All I ask of you- phantom of the opera
cd you bought = Michael Buble
cd you listened to = Switchfoot- the beautiful letdown
person you've called = Kristen
person that's called you= phil
tv show you've watched = Monk
person you were thinking of = Mike...

DO...

you have a crush on someone = it kinda i dont know where it went within the last hour
you wish you could live somewhere else = not really
others find you attractive = i dont know
you want more piercings =no
you like cleaning = sometimes
you like roller coasters = sometimes
you write in cursive or print = print.. and its horrible

FOR OR AGAINST...

long distance relationships = against
using someone = Against
killing people = Against
teenage smoking = Against
driving drunk = Against
soap operas = i hate those god damned things

HAVE YOU...

ever cried over a boy/girl = Yeah...
ever lied to someone = yea
ever been in a fist fight = no
ever been arrested = no

WHAT...

shampoo do you use = pantine pro-v
shoes do you wear = Vans, red and white ones
are you scared of = well... where does the list begin... to long to put on here

NUMBER...

of times I have been in love? = i claim its twice
of times I have had my heart broken? = once
of hearts I have broken? = 3
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = once
of scars on my body? = well.. give me an hour
of things in my past that I regret? = okay lets just say more then i can count on my hands and toes

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...

funny = no
hot = no
friendly = yeah
amusing = ehhhh
loveable = sometimes
caring = yes
sweet = i guess so
dorky = oh god yes

PERSON WHO LAST...

slept in your bed = me..and my pillow...
saw you cry = uhh...i looked in mirror andme?
you went to the movies with = scroz, jared,tony, mike,
yelled at you = the mother
sent you an email = Sam

HAVE YOU EVER...

said "I love you" and meant it = yes..
gone out in public in your pajamas = Yes...i hate it i always chose to go out in the driveway when someone popular rides/drives by
kept a secret from everyone = many
cried during a movie = oh god yes
planned your week based on the TV Guide = no
been on stage = yeah
been to new york = no
been to california = no
been to hawaii = No
been to japan = no
been to canada = no
been to europe = no
been to asia = no
been to south = the south of the US? all the time



apples or bananas = Apples
blue or red = red
walmart or target = target
spring or fall = Fall(hence the screenname)
what are you gonna do after you finish this = go off into deep thought..
what was the last meal you ate = chicken parmizan or how ever the hell you spell it
are you bored = no.. my minds just overwhelming me right now
last noise you heard = listening to some jazz
last smell you sniffed= the laundry crap-o-la


FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE...

do you believe in love at first sight = yeah
do you want children one day & if so, how many =TWO
most important thing to you in a friendship is = trust

OTHER INFO...

criminal record = None
do you speak any other languages = Italian and Dorklish
last book you read = I love Bad boys
Your favorite things in your bedroom = the computer and my paintings
who do you love = i dunoo
who you miss = .....

YOU...

nickname(s) = Slutty kate,kateness, gouldie locks, Mz.redcobalt
initials = K.N.G.
how old do you look = ive been told 19
how old do you act = ive been told 25
glasses/contacts = both
braces = No
do you have any pets = 2 dogs and 3 cats
you get embarrassed = lotsa times
what makes you happy = painting...
what upsets you = lies